January 20, 2013
So, update: I slept last night without zopiclone. I don’t feel awesome today, really, but fine enough. Just one of those melancholy days.
I’m really confident that zopiclone will only be an occasional ally from now on. I know I can sleep without it, but sometimes I might need some help if I really, really can’t sleep. I’m not 100% where I want to be, but honestly I don’t know if I just have higher expectations of myself than are possible to meet. I want to feel how I did before I “got sick”, in 2010. I think maybe nostalgia is warping my perceptions of how those years really felt. I’m certainly healthier mentally, but I dunno, I feel…incomplete. Maybe that’s just how 22 year old unemployed girlfriendless guys feel? : P
Anyways, we will return to our regularly scheduled programming soon.
Thanks for everything,